A time to reflect..

It's amazing to me how the older I get the faster time flys by. It seems like only yesterday that my family was living in Levan and the first snowfall always seemed to land on a saturday. I loved being woken up by the smell of my mom's cooking and her cheery voice telling us that after breakfast we could play in the snow. I so desperatly wanted to play in the snow this year but sadly my parents live 5 1/2 hours away and I'm the one cooking breakfasts now. I've also been working like a mad woman ....12 days in a row, some of which were doubles... ugg... Now

the snow is practically all gone and I finally have a day off. So instead of playing with the dirty left over snow I've been cleaning, finishing up getting ready for christmas, and reflecting on my life so far. I have exaclty 3 months until I'm married....MARRIED!!! I am so ready and so excited to marry the love of my life but I just can't believe that I'm old enough, sometimes I still feel like I'm playing a game of life instead of actually living it. I now have 12 nieces and nephews, 2...maybe 3.. (I'm not sure yet) on the way and one that's already back with our heavenly father. And to top that all off in March I can add on Kole's 6 neices and nephews to my list. I can't belive how big everyone is getting and how many of them there are. I still remember MaKady being born and here we are 11 years later and she says she's to big to sit on santa's lap...! I just am so amazed with everything. I'm amazed at how far my family has come through all of our trials.. happiness.. and craziness. We are all growing up so fast and I just don't know where the time has gone. It's been 8 years (on the 15th) since our accident and the memory is still so strong in my mind. (for those of you who don't know which accident I'm refering to, it was a really bad car accident my dad, mary, and I got into just before christmas which almost cost us our lives). Every year around this time I become so emotional not just from that but all of the other hard times we have had and gone through as a family. It's hard to be away from everyone. I am just so extremly thankful for my family and everyone else who has been there to support us through everything. My family is huge and I couldn't imagine it any different, they and all of my experiences are what has made me who I am today. I know that I'm kind of rambling but I just wanted to let everyone know how greatful I am for them and to tell my family how much I love them and how much they mean to me. With out you I don't know what I would do. Christmas is in 4 days and I am so glad to say... I'll be home for Christmas..:) with Kole along for the ride.